My friend Will Ontiveros recently appeared on Khloe Kardashian’s Revenge Body (E!) and is our guest blogger today! I asked him to speak about his body issues pre RB and post RB for our #LoveYourBodyMORA series because he always keeps it 100 and I thought it would be dope to hear a man’s perspective. xo NM
To start with, I’ve always dealt with body issues. I’ve always been a huskier guy. I remember in high school I hit puberty, lost a lot of my “baby weight,” and I remember thinking to myself, “werk! This is how I should look.” I definitely took my metabolism for granted at the time. I ate whatever I wanted and didn’t gain a pound. Then going into college I had that same mentality and hit the freshman 15 – or really for me like the freshman 30.
For a couple of years, I struggled with my weight but then was able to maintain a physique I liked on myself. I met my ex-boyfriend and then gained “love weight” with him. It wasn’t until he told me he wasn’t attracted to me anymore and left me that I realized I had completely let myself go. I honestly hated my body more than anything at that time, and even though I knew basic concepts of diet and working out could fix this, I was so emotionally devastated and unhappy that I turned to food. How ironic that the thing that was causing me all my issues was the one thing I turned to. In the moment, food has the ability to take away your pain, and I definitely didn’t want to feel that way anymore. So I ate and I ate. I also work in tv and film and there is PLENTY of food on set. Literally from the moment you arrive on set to the moment you leave there is something to eat.
It got to the point that I was desperate for change. I was crying and white girl wasted one night and my neighbor saw me coming home and mentioned she was casting for Khloe Kardashian’s Revenge Body. I shared my story with the producers a week later and that was the beginning of my fitness journey.
Yes, Revenge Body is a reality show but it was also a very real journey for me. I had the best everything: trainer, nutritionist, dermatologists, glam squads, you name it. Anything I wanted was at my fingers tips and I still felt defeated. Why? Because I didn’t work on my inner self first. With the body came the mind. I started seeing results, I was happier, I was getting attention. I was becoming a living breathing damned muscle cub! I still workout with my trainer and still work with the nutritionist. I’m not exactly where I want to be but I am 52 pounds lighter with muscle.
It’s a start.
I have about another year to go, but through my vulnerability on the show I have been able to connect with thousands of people! I get messages from all over the world saying how I have inspired and motivated them to turn the pain into gains. Side note! I also got a boyfriend out of this. Surprisingly, he saw me at my heaviest and still loved me. It’s hard to go from eating Thai food on a Tuesday to chicken and broccoli. You have to allow yourself to cheat every now and then, but I’m not happy heavy and I choose to eat clean so I can be happy with my body for the rest of my life. Revenge Body gave me the tools for a healthy lifestyle and I won’t waste them. I took it so seriously that on season 2 I’ll now be mentoring a new participant who is going through the same thing I did. Life works in the craziest ways, but I am proud of my body and where I’m at.
And that’s my journey with #LoveYourBodyMORA!
– Will Ontiveros