Vulnerability is something I’ve learned to share in the past few months. While my vulnerability has been shared in private, showing it has been a struggle since I can remember.
I’m the “strong” girl. The friend that gives you tough love because she knows it’s good for you. The fixer.
When you are the strong one, people tend to forget you also need someone to lean on. The tough girls don’t always have it together, no matter what it may look like on the outside.
As you know, I recently joined a show called FaceTime Five by FaceTime Entertainment. Signing onto this show meant that the world will see all sides of me – good and bad. I was scared, but I knew there were so many stories that need to be shared through this platform.
Our episode about self care aired this week. We taped it the day after we had to put Bronx down (blog post coming next week) and I was a mess. Losing Bronx was the cherry on top of a few very, very trying years for me. I could no longer put up a front and be strong. I didn’t want to be tough anymore. I wanted to share with you, my audience, what a tough time it’s been for me, regardless of how great my life has seemed on social media.
I signed on to do FaceTime Five, and with that, I made a promise to myself and to you, to show my vulnerability. You will never be able to fully understand and connect with me unless you also see the behind the scenes of what makes me who I am.
This episode means a lot to me. It’s the first time I’ve ever shown this side of me. It most definitely won’t be the last. I received so many messages after it aired and my heart is so touched. Thank you. I’m so excited for you to start seeing the softer side of me that actually exists!